In my waking hours, I am the self-proclaimed master of shifting my perspective 95% of the time. I have shared in blog posts before of my ability to find gratitude somewhere within a situation. No matter how fearful, painful or ominous something may appear, I can spin it into a growth or learning opportunity.
The problem is that my sleeping/unconscious mind does not seem to be buying into these heroic shifts in perspective that my waking/conscious mind is working so hard to create.
My conscious attempts to reassure myself work pretty well or else I would imagine I might be a lot less functional in my daily life (bonkers, perhaps) than I am, given the events of the last couple of years.
But, how much more functional could I be now if I could get my unconscious to get with the program?
I have been doing my share of surrendering over the course of 10 years with PLS, but wouldn’t it seem like I am still resisting if I am waking up from my sleep with tears or anxiety? The last couple of years have “encouraged” me to surrender on a new and different level than before and I have worked really hard to consciously surrender. I have been grateful for the opportunities for the most part.
While I do not mean to diminish my efforts and successes toward these acts of surrender, I see today that I must be missing something important in this surrendering process.
Clearly, these “acts” and “moments” of consciously surrendering are not enough for the sleeping Tawny. Perhaps if I can continue to string enough of them together, it will become the “lifestyle” of my unconscious eventually? I am hopeful that I am on the right track, but would love to hear your thoughts.
- How many signs does the Ego need to surrender to the Soul’s wisdom? (inktuition.net)