When I was in my late teens and full of insight, my therapist used to tell me, “Insight without action isn’t worth much to you.” I was a wise young thing, but I was really at a loss about how to act upon what I seemed to know.
Awareness and insight are wonderful things, unless you would prefer burying your head in the proverbial sand. Generally speaking, I am not a fan of the sand. It gets everywhere and is hard to clean.
Sometimes, I want to like the sand. I want to be that person who can go bury my head as far down into it as is possible. I often want to be the person who hides under the covers and comes out in a day, a week, a year.
But I am not. And never have been that person.
I am the person who is just going about her day, minding her own business, when this flash of insight or awareness hits and suddenly something makes more sense. I am the person who figures out the lesson and keeps moving forward with a plan or three.
Despite my mad planning, anticipating, and back up planning skills, my life operates very much on synchronicity. I have learned over time and experience to make my plans flexible enough to allow for that additional resource, additional knowledge or insight that changes it around.
I am ok with that as my life. In fact, it is one of my favorite things about being a reflective and aware person. I don’t miss much and can figure out pretty quickly that the plan needs adjusted to fit the new. I might not act on it as quickly as I would like, but I am getting faster at taking action.
Again, though, what good is any of the awareness, insight, knowledge I have gained through my experiences and education if I take no action because of it?
Not worth all that much, is it? I follow-up most of my epiphanies with, “So, now what are you going to do about it?”
I am a reflective person by nature. I process things. I write about them, talk about them and try to make some sense of them.
For at least ten weeks now, I have approached a Tuesday baclofen pump decrease with some level of anxiety. Each of those weeks, I have chosen to do something differently to better manage that.
Each week, I have had epiphanies that have helped me to move forward into the next decrease. Finally, last week, after gaining a new perspective, the anxiety was not an issue.
After tweaking something each week, I have very little anxiety. After today, there are no more baclofen decreases, so I reckon I got here just in time!
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