I do have a lot going on, although I tend to try to minimize it as much as I can. I would prefer for you to have the impression that everything is under control, whether it feels that way over here or not.
While I am the master at shifting my perspective from being overwhelmed with those things in my world for which I am responsible, I do spend a great deal of time feeling just that.
I share the shift more often than I share the overwhelmed moments.
Today, I feel overwhelmed. I am tired from an overly busy week and weekend. In spite of my best efforts, my energy was not managed well. This is a set up for feeling overwhelmed and I know this fact.
When I think about the many things that I need to do to prepare for the Social Security hearing, my Amore’s recurrent respiratory infection, my own health issues that I am feeling rushed to deal with, and various other tasks I am responsible for taking care of, I start to feel overwhelmed.
If you have ever shared with someone that you feel overwhelmed, you have likely heard the following:
“It’s all ok. You will be fine.”
Of course that will all be true, but not if I do not get done what needs to get done! It doesn’t take away the need to be busy doing things I do not feel like and do not want to spend my time doing.
Of course I will be fine. It is what I do. I turn shit into rainbows.
At this moment in time, in the midst of feeling overwhelmed, I am not fine. I am on deadline and there is an urgency that I need to honor. That means make appointments, gather records, get records to the ALJ, blah blah blah.
That means getting my dog to the veterinarian. It means scheduling a minor surgery for myself when I need to be spending that time gathering up records and seeing doctors that relate most to my illness symptoms.
Mostly right now, it means I have to do things I do not feel like doing because my body and brain are too tired.
Feeling overwhelmed is pretty sucky, so I don’t stay here long. I do validate that it does happen and will happen periodically, however. I will develop a plan so that I can refer to that plan when I feel overwhelmed the next time.
It isn’t anything but life. No matter what it is, it can seem overwhelming. I say it is ok if you feel overwhelmed. Life can feel that way for grown-ups who are trying to be responsible for the outcomes of their circumstances. These are things that no one can do for me, so in a minute, I will sit down and map out my plan of action.
I just felt like you should know that I do feel overwhelmed over here. Sometimes I need to stay here a minute before I can plan my way out of it. Yes, I know it will be ok once I do. It just isn’t right now and that’s ok.