There is a natural order and flow to the universe. It becomes evident as one period ends and another begins. No time is it more evident than the ending of one year into another.
This year, on New Year’s weekend, I did something a bit different than I have in the last few. While I was my usual reflective self, purged things in my house no longer necessary, and such, I was also ever conscious of the need to be still enough and grounded enough to understand what I needed to let go of from 2015. I wanted to be clear and certain about what would carry over into 2016.
My 2015 was overall quite positive with the exception of the loss of my soul mate dog. Much of what happened in 2015 involved the ending of an era. An era that started nearly 15 years ago, and I am not sure I realized the magnitude of that ending.
I didn’t just need the stillness and grounding to close out a typical year, but to close out an era and to put some serious thought into what I wanted to create for the next era that had already begun to emerge in 2015 (late 2014 technically).
Moving forward is probably one of my frequently used tags for this blog, so it might surprise you that I historically am not very good at letting things go. I have so often in my life hung on so tightly to ideas, thought patterns, people, jobs, situations, friends, etc. long after I knew it was no longer serving me. I am not sure I can say that in this new emerging era. I have gotten quite a bit better, and perhaps even more efficient, in my ability to let go and move forward.
It was certainly something Duke and his brother tried so very hard to teach me in their lifetime, so I am proud to be able to honor them by finally “getting” it. I surprised myself when it was time to let Amore and Duke go because I didn’t feel the need to hang on for dear life for myself. I felt more the need to let them go for them. Duke was truly the testament for that. Amore paved the way for it.
Letting Duke go meant the end of a very challenging era. My entire life was thwarted, derailed, and I was on a detour for quite a while. But somewhere along the way, I realized I might just be a Weeble-Wobble. How else can I explain where I am now, based on where I started?
The detour taught me more than I ever expected to learn, and gave me a perspective that I never thought I would have. The lessons, the perspective, gratitude, humility, and the strength from that era helped me to move forward at the time of his loss, but more than that, have allowed me to get back on the path with more certainty, in spite of my illness.
It is this foundation I chose to take with me into my life’s new era, and into 2016. What are you choosing to take with you into 2016? What are you letting go?